A stop-over?

It has been a long time since we added something to this blog and for a very good reason. The last year has been amazing for Saskia. She returned to school, her grades are fantastic, she joined calisthenics and just generally feels good. Her hair is getting long and curly and she is looking forward to high school.
The last year we have had some major changes to our family circumstances. Our household now has two more members: Saskia's grandparents from Singapore. They arrived last December and we hope that the Australian government is kind enough to let them stay forever. So with nine in the house we need to keep ourselves occupied and we are in the middle of opening a restaurant in Hahndorf in the Adelaide Hills.
All was going very well and we had grand ideas for the future.

And then there was this lump in her neck once again.

She had developed a little lump before, but the treating doctors mentioned that due to the removal of half of the lymfnodes/glands from the left side of her neck, in case of a cold, the remaining nodes would work a little harder and swell up. So nothing to worry about.
However this time it was a little different. The lump was quite substantial in size and after some tests (ultra sound and CT scan), the oncologists mentioned that it is highly likely that the neuroblastoma is back. Although there is a small chance that this is just a glandular virus, due to Saskia's history and the fact that the lump re-appeared at exactly the same spot as where the neuroblastoma originally started, the doctor said that we have to brace for another storm.

Now this just took our breath away. So many questions and so little answers:

why?
the journey was over, or was it just a stop-over?
why?
why?
she was cleared, how is this possible?
why?
why?
God, what do you want from us?
why?
why?
WHY!?

At this stage there are no answers. The fact remains that it is highly likely that Saskia's journey has to start all over again. Next week we will meet with the doctors once again and talk about the way forward. A date for an operation will have to be set, followed by some form of treatment thereafter.

All we can hope for is that it is just a bad dream and that the lump is some form of a glandular virus.